Am I Asking For Too Much?

You know that quote from Marilyn Monroe? If you can't handle me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best... I think this applies really well to the guys I've been with.

Or at least that's the only way I know how to see it, I've been an emotional wreck I know that, but I also didn't want to be and worked with it as well as I could.. I mean, I'm different now, but I worked really hard to handle my issues and still seem sane... I know what I do wrong, I know where I screwed up, and I know what people want. The thing is, maybe I just don't want what everyone else wants. I don't want a shallow love, like small talk I get incredibly bored with it. I've made a fool of myself trying to be with guys that just weren't right for me I guess.