I understand. What i m trying to say here is that it may appear to be a mistake yet you have a purpose to serve. Forget the person for whom you were a mistake. Now you go on with your life, doing something with it, and hopefully some day, have kids, on purpose, whom you will dearly love and they will know because you wont do onto them what was done onto you.
yes and lacking any clear answer i went with my insticts and what i was good at stayed in school got an education took advantage of a chance to go to college
accepted the help offered to me when it came to funding for school and job placement only for them to **** everything up
continued with clerical training in hopes of being employed took skills i learned and apllied for jobs even after job placement tossed me asside
over 100 jobs and over 2 years later still unemployed still living on asssitance
despite making ever right choice there is to make and not giving up