I Meant This Promise, I Am Keeping It

i have kept this promise from mom for awhile, i just told her over the phone just now. that after this, i'll promise to dedicate my time to them. no more caring about love or stupid such... i know that i can after experiencing such a dramatic year, such a dramatic life. i have matured well beyond my age, unlike my peers... they still have shallow thoughts where rainbows have no end and all they care about is winning against each other. this may sound silly or whatever, i really don't care what others think of me anymore. you don't know what i have been through, it's not normal neither should anyone go through what i have been through. but i have seen people who has never given up and they said, one day things will turn around. i stop searching for love, i stop waiting for it to come. if it wanna come, sure most welcome. but if it's not the time, it's just not. so hey... it's not only me who has such sucky life.... there are many others worst than mine. so hereby, i promise myself i will not quit on life... even if i talked about killing myself, i'm just being emotional.
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22-25, F
Jul 21, 2010