This Must Be..

The most hurtful moment of my life.

The truely, deeply heaviest memory in my brain.

The girl in front of me, cracking up, falling to her knees, and cry.
For me.
Falling to her knees and cry for me.

I didn't think these kind of things happen. But they do. And she did. And I hurt.

Even though this girl is no longer any friend of mine, even though both of us, me and her, have changes a lot through time. Since then. This still is a very strong memory to me.
I can't imagine anyone standing such a pain, seeing a friend do such a thing.

I rarely look back at the memory, but it is there. I try not to focus on it, but it happens. And it is... capturing. Breathtaking. Wordless. Silent. Dead. Long. Angry. And hurt.

Gasp. I'm glad when I can breath again after remembering this.
I always feel better.
 

OleMona OleMona
18-21, F
8 Responses Feb 15, 2009

Hahaha! Really, you don't know the situation. <br />
And I'm not laughing to ridicule you, I just couldn't help it.<br />
I appreciate your words, but things change over time.<br />
This happened about 7 years ago or so. Might be more, might be less, can't really remember.<br />
But still, it's what you'd expect. I'm 19 now, so I muust have been 12 at the time.<br />
Me and my friend had known each other since I got there at age 8. <br />
One just have to accept that people change during such vital years, and that people slip apart.<br />
I am very contempt with the situation.<br />
<br />
Thank you for you concern.<br />
It is not needed, but it is appreciated.<3

a simple word of thanks just might be the thing that will bring this person back, you neevr know, she may be right here.

I didn't mean to let her go. But she got new friends. And then she couldn't/wouldn't be my friend anymore. It's still sort of sore, but if that's how she is happy, I'll happily let her go.<br />
She knows she saved my life that day, and that she will always have a special place in my heart.<br />
We're just not fit to be friends anymore. We've grown and changed and don't have much in common anymore. We speak ocasionally, but only because we're at the same parties or something.<br />
I'm just happy that she doesn't hate me anymore :D

how can anyone let go of a soul that felt your pain?

It says right there! :p<br />
We were friends at the time, and I was hurting, and she cried for me.<br />
But we have both changed afterwards, and we are no longer friends.<br />
Still, this is a strong, emotional memory for me, and it still means a lot to me.<br />
Ta-da!<br />
Gah -___-

Sorry Yo. I guess I just don't understand.... Tell me more. What happened that hurt you, and made her not be friends with you any more, but still cry for you. Were you good friends at the time, and then split years later.. or was it right then when she ended it. You can tell us.

You should know the story better ^__^<br />
I never did her anything. But she cried FOR me. Not over me, not because of me, but FOR me. For something that happened to me. Because I was hurt. :D<br />
That's all there is to it :p

I'm not suggesting that you go out and stalk this person, but you could go find out where in the world they are right now and just truly, deeply, whole heartedly apologize. Even if it doesn't make them feel better, at least you tried. And I'm assuming you learned something in the process that will keep you from making the same mistake a 2nd time. 9 out of 10 people would not even try this, but I bet if you were wearing the other shoes, 9 out of 10 of those people would like to understand what the heck happened and know that the person they trusted and cared for understood that they f'd up, and that it still hurts them to know about what they did.<br />
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You never know, time heals all things, and you might just find yourslef with +1 friend.<br />
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Good luck