Just Had A Horrible Fight With My Bpd Husband. I Got Tired And Actually Stud Out For Myslf
I few days ago I had the most horrible fight with my BPD husband. I got tired of being bulied for 5 years and stud up to him. he kept hitting me and i keep asking him to kill me because I did not want to live like this anymore and he did. He left after he choked me and back handed me and I would not stand down. I really thought he was going to kill me and I did not care. I has been so bad. My kids left and that was not enough. I have not seen my mom in three years and that was not enough. I left all my friends and that was not enough. I gave him money, a home, a family and that was not enough and according to him it is all my fault. I have not done enough. Now I'm bruised and broken inside. I think about him 24/7. I wonder if he will come back, but will not call him. I want him to comeback, but inside I hope he will not. Please help me to stop thinking about him and hopping he will call. I don't want to live like this anymore. I rather die.