I Married My Husband Twice

WHEN I MET MY HUSBAND I WAS DIVORCED FROM MY DAUGHTERS DAD AFTER 11 YEARS.  I FELL IN LOVE WITH MY HUSBAND WHILE HE WAS TAKEN TREATMENTS FOR CANCER. (I WORKED WITH HIS SISTER) LATER  WHEN HE CAME OUT OF THE HOSPITAL AFTER A BONE MARROW TRANSPLANT WE BEGAN DATING.  HE DID NOT HAVE A HAIR ON HIS BODY AND WEIGHT 100 POUNDS SOAKEN WET, BUT THERE WAS SOMETHING THERE THAT MADE ME FALL IN LIVE WITH HIM.  SIX MONTHS LATER WE WERE MARRIED.  HIS HEALTH WENT BACK AND FORTH FOR THE FIRST 2 YEARS AND NOW 10 YEARS LATER HE IS CANCER FREE.  WE DIVORCED AFTER THE FIRST 5 YEARS OF OUR FIRST MARRIAGE.  BETWEEN HIS SPOILED DAUGHTER, NOISY MOTHER AND HIS TEMPER THE MARRIAGE ENDED WHEN HE THRU ME AND MY DAUGHTER OUT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT!!  WE WERE APART (DIVORCED) FOR 2 YEARS AND DURING THOSE YEARS HE NEVER STOP STAYING IN TOUCH WITH ME.  FINALLY HE PROMISED ME NEVER TO HURT ME AGAIN AND I GAVE HIM A SECOND CHANCE.  FIVE YEARS LATER AND I HAVE MANY REGRETS BUT FEEL TRAPPED IN THIS MARRIAGE FOR MONEY REASONS AND NEEDING A ROOF TO PUT UNDER MY DAUGHTERS HEAD.  I AM LONLEY AND WANTING A COMPANION BUT I FEEL LOST.  ANY ADVISE WOULD HELP.  (I AM CONSIDERING EVEN HAVING AN AFFAIR UNTIL MY DAUGHTER GOES TO COLLEGE IN A COUPLE OF YEARS AND THEN LEAVING....HELP
jennyd jennyd
41-45, F
Oct 20, 2006