Spanking And WankingEver since I learned how to **********, I've jacked off while fantasizing about spanking. Since I'm gay, my tastes tend toward fantasies of men spanking men, but sometimes I also like to imagine a man being spanked by a woman. Now, I have an enormous collection of spanking movies and I've bookmarked several dozen sites and blogs related to spanking. Virtually every day, I go through my list of bookmarks to see if there is anything new. I love story sites. My favorite is malespank.net. (The name is self explanatory.) There are stories on that site that I've read a hundred times and that still get me hard. If I'm not careful, I'll spend hours every day on the net or watching movies I've purchases or downloaded. I'm an addict. That is clear. But I don't want to be cured. I just derive so much pleasure from it. Not to mention that over the years I've achieved some mind-boggling *******. And all from reading stories or watching movies in which one man smacks another man on his bare bottom.
And the quality of some of what's available on the net now is just amazing. Thirty years ago most of it was pretty pathetic. One man patting another man on the ***, while the man being "spanked" pretends he's in pain. Now, there are several sites featuring films with high production values in which young men with movie star good looks and fabulous behinds get real, honest to goodness *** reddening spankings. It is a like a golden age for spankos. So I suppose I'm living at the right time.
I don't pretend to understand it. I didn't like getting spanked as a kid. It was embarrassing and it hurt. But I was spanked a good deal growing up, so I suppose you could argue that I developed the fetish as a defense mechanism. But I don't regret it. For the most part life sucks, and there are times when the pleasure I get from fantasizing about spanking is what makes it possible for me to get through the day. If my stepdad and his hairbrush turned me into a spanko, I don't blame him. I'm grateful. Without intending to, I think he did me a big favor. If this is supposed to be a survival mechanism, it's working. I've survived and I'm having a hell of a lot of fun.