I Cant Forgive And Forget

all my life has been hell, i know others have had worst of but i have had some misery. for 8 years of my childhood i was beaten, hated, raped all by my dads now ex. because of her i am an outcast, i put on a brave face and smile but deep down i am hurting like hell and it tares me apart. whenever i want to talk about it to my family so i can get it of my chest they tell me give up and move on with my life and believe me i have tried so hard but how can i move on when she scared me physically and emotionally. now alli see when i am alone is my life, me sitting in the corner crying silent tears. i once believed in god as well but i gave up my faith long ago. i am now just a girl who tries to be happy and move on but how can i when even to this day people still make fun of me because how i was treated by her and they had better lives. i now am still the outcast, even though my family tell me they care i can tell they dont, they push me around because they think i am weak, they dont think that i hear their words, the hurtful ways that pains me.


is it wrong to ask for some one to care?