I love being on my own and find being around other people ,especially large groups a chore . I have few friends ,mostly Just people I know rather than friends . I don't have much to do with my family (I always say you know where I am if you need me ,and to be fair I always am ),I answer their calls and take up some invites to gatherings but always get anxious beforehand to the point I end up not giving a **** and then stroll on in to the occasion with this attitude of lack of care ,almost always alienating myself in a subconscious attempt to push people away so they leave me alone .in these social organisms my mind is racing and I dissect every comment or look I get and it drives me insane . When I'm on my own ,even though I still think all the time ,I can freely think about anything without the situation I'm in pushing my thoughts in a certain direction ,therefore feel in control of myself and free to do as I please . I like one on one time with the people I care about ,I feel I can give these people full and honest attention and after feel perked up hoping any advice or help I've given them has made some positive difference but never require them to do so for me . My favourite quote is " he who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd ,he who travels alone will find himself in places no one has ever been" I feel I'm a contradiction ,I've been told I'm hard to read and I hate being asked if I'm ok , I am what I am and me alone will have to deal with that ,thanks for reading and take care
michaelb77 michaelb77
36-40, M
Aug 17, 2014