Unclear About My Diagnosis

In July of this year I was at home, and my grandmother had to come over due to the hot weather and her poor air conditioning at her home. I did not feel like entertaining her. A little over a year before this incident I was just fired from my second job. I was a waiter at a buffet. The job came with much stress and anxiety on my part. Stress and anxiety that I did not deal with in a healthy way. I would get off a shift and use my tip money to buy alcohol or pot, on nights where I'd have to work the next day.

Self-medicating aside I had trouble going to sleep. I'd start dreaming that I was still at work and would wake up not knowing that I was home in bed. I'd have to remind myself that I didn't need to do anything as I was trying to go to sleep.

As a child I was diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder. I was prescribed behavioral meds (Ritalin, Concerta, Adderall). Which while they worked may have caused mood swings.

Back to my story I was at home. My mom wanted me to get some things from the grocery store. Among the groceries I had purchased was a six pack of Beck's. I had some Ambien that my mother was letting me use to help me sleep. However I knew where she kept her bottle and snuck into her room and stole more. Not wanting to deal with my grandmother I had ingested a couple of beer alongside six to eight Ambiens. I overdosed and was rushed to the hospital. I eventually came to at the hospital. But was subsequently transferred to a psychiatric hospital where I stayed in their in-patient program for five days.

While I was there I was diagnosed by one of the psychiatrists with Bipolar Disorder. Yet my case worker had on her sheet R/O (ruling out) Bipolar Disorder. Upon being released I was apart of the out-patient program for a day. I forgot to mention that I have no health insurance and was being helped through Network 180.

I still have a lot of trouble concentrating but have been told by my doctor not to go on ADD medication as it might induce mood swings. So I've been taking the meds prescribed to me in the psychiatric hospital (Lamictal for depression and Trazodone to help me sleep).

I do come from a pretty dysfunctional family. And I've been doing fairly well at abstaining from drugs and alcohol.

Any thoughts, comments, or feedback of any kind would be appreciated.
jdawg96 jdawg96
22-25, M
Dec 13, 2012