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Zen Center This Morning

A zen teacher told me on monday that zen is a rigorous practice. Zazen (meditation) is used to break down the constructs of the mind and replace them with new (better) constructs.

Other than that mention, zen practitioners rarely speak about the mental or physical result of frequent zazen. To them, zazen is never finished, so there is no result.

I have done a lot of zazen (for me) in the last few days, and I definitely feel a change in my mental constructs already. I have been to the zen center for the 5:25 zazen every morning since monday (its wednesday).

I am experiencing less impulsive emotions. I am usually only present when Im doing something that requires focus. But even in driving, exercising and walking, I am usually not present. I am thinking. After frequent zazen, however, those three activities involve less thinking. At first they seem to be more dull because of it, but thats only because Im not experiencing the emotions created by memories of the past, aspirations for the future, or complete fantasies.

Those impulsive emotions created by thoughts are not as satisfying or meaningful as emotions created by actual interaction with the outside world such as the joy from laughing with a friend or riding a wave or the sadness from saying goodbye.

As of this wednesday, I hope to keep up frequent zazen and continue changing my mental constructs. I know longer wish to experience so much emotion from memories or fantasies.

I will keep updating this group with my zazen experiences in hopes of either sparking conversation or building a personal record for me to reference in the future.
oceanIsMyBreath oceanIsMyBreath 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 11, 2012

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I need to learn how to meditate. All the research I have done indicates it is the most important thing you can do to achieve happiness. I recently quit taking anti-depressants and birth control pills and my emotions are all over the place. I never realized how much those meds were affected me. I'm having trouble not being numb.

I highly recommend giving meditation a try, but doing it to "achieve" something defeats the purpose. That said, by focusing on each breath and sitting still, you may be able to observe emotions more clearly instead of having them control how you feel.

relax, first relax.There is nothing you need to do right now... breathe. Slow down. It is possible to do. I know I have done it.There are formal classes, etc. if you need them