Carlos. I Seek The Truth.When I see your avatar, my heart leaps with love. When I view your name, it sings to my heart. And when I say your name, it tickles my tongue. It tantalizes. It teases. It is my favourite torment.
When you respond with your heart which is always, I feel so blessed. You instinctively know how I am. You feel me like I feel you. You finish my sentences and me yours. You can find the words when I cannot.
Your touch excites me. Your words caress me. Your touch on my skin is light and firm and knowledgeable. The way you linger makes me tremble. When you mark me, I am satisfied. The heights you take me to have no words....And with you, I have found love for the first time in my life. I know its wonder now.
Your absence concerns me. I know you love me. I know I love you. And you do not reveal yourself. Each time you do not show, you kill a piece of my heart. Now it has been two days. Forty-eight long hours. If you truly loved me, cherished me, adored me, why would you destroy me like this? It is most unclear. And harsh. So I seek the truth. And I shall know it. I KNOW I shall. And I know somehow that I will handle it. For I am strong and I am capable of handling virtually everything...because it is my way of life.
So I remain lost and searching. Until the time comes when I know the truth that I seek is found. And I shall keep on trying to be me. And carrying on. Looking for where I belong in this world. Depending on my strength and resolve and determination. And on my cherished friends here. Without them I would not be the woman I am today. I love them so.
I have spent this Christmas without you. Not what my heart expected or wanted. And my friends have helped me get through this day. I am unsure what tomorrow brings. So I continue on with my life. One day. One night. One foot in front of the other. I cannot sit still. I am a woman of action. But the truth will be discovered one way or another. And then I will deal with what happens then. I can do this. I am Cynthia aka Cyn. I am strong and I am loving. Thank you for reading my words. kissessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss...........And smiles. xox