Confused - Please Help

I'm not 100% sure if I am attracted to girls (I am a 14 year old girl) but I know the difference between a pretty and not so pretty women.
I really want a girlfriend. I have dreams about being in a relationship with a girl and I like dreaming about it. In my dreams, I used to automatically say I was bi but now I say I'm a lesbian whenever I dream about girls...
I've had internet girlfriends in the past, but it's not the same. It doesn't feel real, so I'm not having anymore internet girlfriends.

I almost came onto my friend. I got really close to her and kissed her on her cheek. I liked it. I don't know why I liked it, I just did. But I didn't have that sort of feelings for her.
I've never properly kissed anyone (boy or girl). I really want to have a relationship with a girl but no on is interested in me, I want to know how to get a girlfriend.

Please, I know this probably sounds weird but I found it confusing. I try to let time decide but I keep dreaming about it.

I want to try being with a girl. I don't know why. I just think about being with one and it makes me feel happy and warm inside.
I have found one or two women attractive. It's more like an emotional desire to be with a woman (if that makes sense).

School has been a little hard with friends and that. A lot of my friends are really into boys and keep going on about them. It does my head in. One of my friends said she'd hate it if one of her friends told her that they was lesbian/bi. This annoys me and makes me feel odd and upset :(

I've been thinking this way for almost a year now.

Please help me, I'm really confused :(
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Aug 12, 2010