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I Might Create a New Identity One Day

Tired of the Bullshit!

By: invizable
Written on June 15th, 2008

Ever got to the point where you are sick of your life as it has been? You probably do if you have ever been frustrated by your situation or position in life.

Between the **** that people give you and the **** I created on my own, I just have been feeling that I want to somehow get clean.

I wish that I could do it in the religious sense through faith in God and Christ, but I've never have made the grade. I always seem to get screwed or screw up somehow or someway.

There's an old saying that goes "everywhere you go,you take yourself". Well there are somethings I love about myself and somethings I hate. I know I can not run away from who I have been or what experiences I have had. I know that where I am at the present is not what I want for my future. I have hope that the future will be brighter ,but I know that there are outside factors which have their own inertia against what I desire.

I have been running on this schedule for so long in my life that I feel that if I do not do something dramatic to turn things around the rest of my years of existence will bare extreme pain and sorrow. What good will life be then?

Perhaps you see this as a bleak and negative perspective, but that is my today-and it is reality. The past you remember but it is already gone whether your times were good or bad. The future you can not predict,nor is there a guarantee on it or anything else in this life.

At this point I really want to create a completely new identity.  How I will accomplish it is left to be seen. Part of it has to do with coming to terms with who you are based on the past and present. That can be hard because you may not like what you see,yet at the same time it is with the memory of better times I have enjoyed with family and friends...  not everyone  can say that. That fact does not lend me comfort for myself or for the similar experiences others endure. In essence it means grabbing a psychological hold on ones self and focusing with determination on the goal of rebirth from a psychological/spiritual perspective.

Second comes the legwork- the physical part of it . Building a framework researching materials that have to do with specifically creating a completely new identity. There are lots of books and articles on it and I am devouring as much as I can hold. Of course I am going to need liquid finances to accomplish it.. which aren't good right now. I'll find it somehow.

Last but not least is making sure you have a well laid out plan on who you will be from now on physical location wise, character wise, educational level,financially... everything laid out. I think anyone who is determined can achieve it,but in these days after 9/11 you got to know what you are doing.

By: invizable
Age: 41-45
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  • britt4ever
    britt4ever

    I just joined this community, just to see whats out here. Strange I find this discussion. The world we live in is so messed up right now that I wouldn't blame anybody for wanting to just start over. I am there right now. I am the President of a company and have just been the victim of life at its worse, or maybe just experienced what is becoming common in todays world over the past year or so. In any event, I am there. After extreme research on the subject, yes if can be done. At this point I kind of wish there was a small group of people that fit each other well enough to do it together as a group of people. An exclusive team of people that believed in each other, trusted in each other and could work side by side to make this dream come true. We all have our reasons. Unless its murder and your dangerous, then the reasons don't matter.



    I had the brass ring of all marriages. A true fairy tale for over a decade. Its a long horrible story. But got down to her dad getting suddenly ill, the passing away due to lack of medical attention. His choice and driven my religion. But it still did something to her. She made some mistakes and got sucked into a crowd of people that still have her. The things that happened after that are heart breaking on one hand and beautiful on the other. To sink the final nail, I was accused for something I didn't do and face prison if charges are filled. I have had enough, to say the least.



    You can change your identity. As stated my another person here, if you are clear, and the change will not leave others destroyed in the wake of your desire, then do it. If you have people that love you, and are not in some kind of danger, then I would really think hard about it, pray about it and go from there. If you have any of the above, then consider yourself lucky and blessed. As I once was. The advice given in the statement from another writer is very sound and really great advice!! Sometimes just making changes in yourself and not feeling bad about going for broke and pleasing yourself can save your life and change your outlook.



    If you want to run, change your life and identity, get a small group of trusted people that want the same. Start a business, run it together and make it happen. There is safety and happiness in certain numbers, as long as they are safe.



    Good luck with your venture.

    Jan 26, 2012
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  • britt4ever
    britt4ever

    I just joined this community, just to see whats out here. Strange I find this discussion. The world we live in is so messed up right now that I wouldn't blame anybody for wanting to just start over. I am there right now. I am the President of a company and have just been the victim of life at its worse, or maybe just experienced what is becoming common in todays world over the past year or so. In any event, I am there. After extreme research on the subject, yes if can be done. At this point I kind of wish there was a small group of people that fit each other well enough to do it together as a group of people. An exclusive team of people that believed in each other, trusted in each other and could work side by side to make this dream come true. We all have our reasons. Unless its murder and your dangerous, then the reasons don't matter.



    I had the brass ring of all marriages. A true fairy tale for over a decade. Its a long horrible story. But got down to her dad getting suddenly ill, the passing away due to lack of medical attention. His choice and driven my religion. But it still did something to her. She made some mistakes and got sucked into a crowd of people that still have her. The things that happened after that are heart breaking on one hand and beautiful on the other. To sink the final nail, I was accused for something I didn't do and face prison if charges are filled. I have had enough, to say the least.



    You can change y

    Jan 26, 2012
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  • rocker6346
    rocker6346

    Well, I can very much relate to what you are saying and I also understand your need to do this.

    It is called (now don't take this in a bad way...) the beginning of a mid-life crisis.



    During one's life, there are several points where one has the opportunity to 'start over': going to high school, going to college, moving out your parents' house, getting a new girlfriend/boyfriend, ...

    The older one gets, the less opportunities occur. At a certain point, when you feel a need for this change, you will want to create the opportunity.

    And that is exactly what you are doing now.



    I haven't lived through it myself so I cannot garantuee you this advice is sound, but here it is:

    If you have the ability to go on with this, if you're not married, don't have financial worries, don't have kids that still need you, ....

    Just do it!

    If you don't, you will regret it for the rest of your life (which will be painful and long)

    BUT if you do have a responsibility at home (wife, kids, job, ...) try to shift this desire.

    Don't just forget it, but alter it in such a way that you can combine your responsibilities and your desire.

    Buy an expensive car, throw out all of your clothes and start buying new ones, redecorate the house everyday for an entire month, start going out again, ... Be wild!

    Jun 15, 2008
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