That Person Is Dead For Good Now

I have spent so much of my life being negative and feeling so low and down and I have lived the abused over and over.
I have almost forgotten what it feels like to be liking myself or feeling good enough, I'm always getting this kick in the teeth and kick up the arse for nothing.
I don't deserve the kicks up the arse- its ron & roslyn, joyce and all the others.  Rose mary desrves a kick up the arse for always setting me up to be taken down and then she runs off laughing with a new guy to feel sorry for her while I cop the ccrap on me.  Its about time I was allowed to look like the one coming up smelling of the roses and rather then her all the time.

but she always wins and always will over me- its the rule of law in this house and way of life rose is accustomed and indulged to believe in. 
czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
36-40, F
Aug 7, 2010