Where Is the Love

Sex is part of the equation but there is much more as well: the closeness, the intimacy, the sense that there is someone in this world who might stand by your side -- that all comes with the package of lover as well.

I don't want a soulmate or a wife or anything with any of those labels. 

I just miss having someone who could hold me as I hold them, just enjoying each other's company.

I think I am too picky.  She's nice but not attractive, or she's attractive but not intelligent, or she won't even look at me so there's no point in talking to her, etc. etc.

Self-sabotage keeps me safe from emotional hurt, but also missing the love.

Being run over by my family makes me wonder if all people are as emotionally destructive as my relatives.  Rationally, I know they are not.  But reason's light does not pierce certain shadows, at least not yet.

Perhaps in time I will learn to trust others and respond to overtures that might bring a little more closeness into my life.
Seraph1m Seraph1m
26-30, M
1 Response Jun 4, 2007

This is a beautiful entry.