Feel Very Empty

My story is not like most people's.....mine starts in 2000 when my husband got ill, was in the hospital for 1 year and I also have 2 sons who I had to take care of while working full time as well.  My husband has been in and out of the hospital for the past 7 years, will never work again, and we have not been intimate for the entire time.  I have come to the realization that we will never be close again, and that makes me very sad because I don't have anyone to lean on.  I have to work, I have to do everything, I have to take care of everyone but ME and it gets tiring and makes me feel very empty.  I love my husband as a person, the father of my children, but not as a husband and it is the same for him.  I will not leave because of his health and my younger son, but staying is making me lose myself and I don't know how much I can take before I really lose my mind. 
2sonsmom 2sonsmom
46-50, F
1 Response May 23, 2007

Does your husband's condition affect his mind? Not his emotions - of course it does that - but if he has his faculties he should not be leaving you alone in the world like this regardless of his physical state. <br />
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You have said you won't leave, and I wouldn't argue that as it's your decision, but since that is the case perhaps you could work to improve what you have. If he is too depressed, too embarrassed, if he feels like he's let you down all then it could prevent him from doing much towards your romantic and sexual relationship than he is capable of doing.