Missed Out

A year ago I met what I thought was the most beautiful girl I'd ever met. We laughed, talked, texted, and overall just enjoyed each other. 2 to 3 months in to our friendship she pleaded her heart out to me, having just been single for 5 years I had no idea how to react. I was scared at first I didn't want to ruin our friendship or even to be a bad boyfriend. In the back of my mind I knew I like her but for some reason I just couldn't say it. So, instead I suggested that we just try a relationship because I was "unsure". But we never really tried it became awkward between the two of us we didn't talk in real life just through text. About 2 weeks or so later I get a text from her that suggests we just be friends. Having thought her mind was already made up I agreed that it would be for the best. A couple of weeks later I thought to myself, I can't let her go, so I talked to her and learned that we both still had feelings for each other. That stint ended up going well actually until later on we had scheduled a time to hang out where I would get my first kiss. But like all picture perfect moments something went wrong and I had to end pick up my grandparents from the airport. That time she ended it claiming that I didn't really like her. Boy was she wrong I would do anything for this girl, I would go as far as to say that I loved her. I just couldn't prove it, I was unprepared going in and confused coming out. I took suggestions to walk away from her but just couldn't, I talked to this girl night and day everyday. I pleaded my heart out to her hoping that we could be together again. I wish I had this fire this drive in the beginning because then just maybe just maybe we would be together still. I walk through the hallways and see her head done ignoring me, or just giving me the generic "sup?" gosh I just wish more than anything to have her back. Now I'm not afraid to admit, I do miss her.
justkeepontruckin justkeepontruckin
13-15
Jan 13, 2013