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We Were So Happy Together, Why Aren't We Anymore? I Miss You.

I met the most beautiful girl 5 years ago when I was still in school and it was like any other love story till the part when we weren't together.

Our relationship was brief and it came to an end in about 7 months and I still remember the day when she told me she didn't love me anymore...
It was a normal school day except that she hadn't showed up that day in school, and I wrote notes for her as an excuse to meet her, and fix things that I had messed up between us. I wore her favorite shirt, her favorite cologne, got flowers and my notebook with her notes. I reached her place and knocked on her door and she came out looking as beautiful as an angel, and I gave her the flowers and the notebook with a letter in it and told her they were the notes she missed out on. I was hoping we could sit down and talk about our issues and I kept telling myself today would be the day I'd fix everything that'd gone wrong and I was so sure about it until she had a sad look on her face. But her tone was different, it felt like for the first time she'd been uncertain and uncomfortable in front of me. I asked her what was wrong, and she didn't reply properly to that as well, I finally asked her if we could sit down and talk. Once we were settled on her front porch I was about to start and she interrupted saying "I can't see you anymore, I don't think it'll work out anymore, I don't love you anymore, I'm really sorry" and just looked at me. I didn't even know what had just happened but my heart beats slowed down as if they were going to stop any moment then. I didn't get the gravity of the situation then at that point of time so as she was leaving, I held her hand and didn't let go, until the words "I don't love you anymore" started ringing in my head. I finally let go and she left and I walked home without saying a goodbye and tears were falling and I didn't know what to do because things turned out to be much more different than what I'd come with. I went on a self-destructive path that night.

After that point I wanted to hate her so much but I couldn't, and I still can't. I wish she'd come back. But I've learned something, and that this wasn't some teenage love, for me it was real, I meant it every time I said I'd never leave and would always be there, but here's where the significance starts, she left and I'm still there waiting for her, with arms wide open, waiting for her to fall into my arms again, if I could wait for five years, I can wait for another hundred, nothing's take me from her. I miss you and I know she'll come back someday, I'll wait for that day. If you are reading this, I want you to know that this heart will always long for you irrespective of where I am. The world just isn't the same without you, but I'll wait for as long as it takes.
WellisntThisjustPeachy WellisntThisjustPeachy 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 18, 2013

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I see that about half a year has passed since you typed this story. I'm curious to wonder if you still have these intense feelings for her?

The only thing I can say about this is that if it was really destined between you two, then her 'faulty' feelings about you and this distance won't mean a thing, becuase eventually, fate and circumstances will just bring you both back. It's just a matter of time. So, if you really believe she's the one, then just wait. You never know what the future holds. It's something you can't just peek into and see what's there. It may surprise you. She may not have feelings for you now, but later on, she might. She might come across a guy that will mistreat her and show her all the wrong qualities a boyfriend should not have and after she finally gets done with him, she might, might, might think about you becuase she'd realized you were and are that guy that was willing to give her the world. Then, she might not take you for granted. THEN, she'd finally realized what a true man really is. THEN, she'd finally understand how things are supposed to be and what she really had. She might chase you later on. Sometimes when people are apart, they have to mature a little or be prepared becuase who knows; if you were still with her, you or her might have done something really huge to cause a lot of hurt and damage. So, maybe this is a learning experience to prepare for you later.

If she's not the one, then be very excited! It only means that another woman is out there that will totally knock you off the ground than your ex. If you think you could love somebody like your ex to that degree, you might want to think again, especially if she's not for you.