I wasn't always this way. I didn't always push everyone away. With him I convinced my self after almost 2 months that I wasn't the one for him no matter how much I wanted to be. There's this little voice in my mind that does was it wants and didn't even ask my heart what it wants. It made me tell him that we weren't meant to be together and that there wouldn't be an us and that it was all over. It forced me to leave before I was left because I was going to get hurt. It made me leave the only one I truly ever loved and now I can't change what has been said and what I have done. The depressions coming back to. I cut today. I cut a lot and deep. I wanted to bleed. I wanted to die but that would hurt people and I don't want to hurt anyone anymore if I can help it. So for now I'll keep cutting and I won't eat and I'll smoke and I'll drink and I'll give up. IM DONE 🙅😕🔫
Meganrosee Meganrosee
18-21, F
Aug 18, 2014