I Really Miss Him a Lot

6 mths had passed and I am now in a new relationship....  Met this guy during St Paddy's Day... We been in contact since then...and very much in love too.. 

He is now away on rotation leave ....a week now since he he has gone home to New Castle, UK.  He told me he will write but until today there isn't a mail nor a text from him. 

I miss him so much I cried myself to sleep every night.  I wrote him a mail but he didn't read it.  I send him a text but there was no reply.  I don't know what else to do but wait here. 

I am hanging on to some of his last words to me ie 'I don't wanna loose you...I love you....See you soon'. 

I miss the few months when we met ...when he gave me so much attention and love.  I feel like the luckiest woman in the world.  I did told him I am very afraid to get hurt again...but he said "lets go into this with our eyes open".  I took his word for it...but 4 mths later...he seems to be calling and writing very less from work which I understand cos he is busy.  Each time he comes back onshore he spend every moment with me...but whenever he goes back offshore..he is a busy man.  Then home to New Castle makes my heart hurt so much...words can never describe it.

I can only hope that he will write and tell me why the silence...or at least let me know where are 'WE'. 

I am at the end of the rope now...not knowing if I still have a place in his heart...does he still loves me...will this relationship continue..and the list goes on.

I just hope I can keep the faith till 6 August to see him back here for a day before he fly offshore again...or Will he still see me?

Eternal Eternal
31-35, F
2 Responses Jul 23, 2007

The relationship is still on... but all I am doing now..is cherish the time left with him...

Welll, I hope he will see you and he still loves you. But I find it hard to believe that he is so busy and don't have the time to sand a short text message or an e-mail! I know it hurts Isuffered a break up for 6 months now and I knew she loved me, but started wondering if she fell in love with her new guy. Hopefullt it turned out that she does love me, because we met unexpectedly and I GOT her. Now we started seeing again and being nice and I am happy, so if he really loved you, you should be fine.