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I Miss Him Tonight

And All of His Imperfections....

By: CuriosityKitten
Written on August 12th, 2008
Age: 31-35 , Female
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16 responses
  • CuriosityKitten

    Thank you.

    Aug 26, 2008
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  • xdlove

    You will and are surviving and healing. It angers me that he hurt you.

    Aug 26, 2008
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  • justmeonline

    I agree that due to the depth of connection you have felt; after the pain - that can take time - you will surely find that you have a huge enough heart to be able to love deeply again. Take care.

    Aug 15, 2008
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  • CuriosityKitten

    You are amazing, thank you.

    Aug 14, 2008
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  • ithinkimmad

    I believed my ex when she said I will never meet any bloke that is half as good as her, I believed her whilst she was conducting an affair.



    I believed that whilst fighting for access to my children that I wasnt half as good as her.



    Today, I believe, I have complete control of my life and I am second to no-one. I miss my chideren extraordinarly loads (even after 5 years). Today, my feelings are more like my children expect me to be a King, but I am me, how can I dissappoint them when I see them, your parents are meant to be super ?



    Sweetie, go on from here and make a life. Every person has the capability of love. A strong attraction and utmost love is not necessarily the good basis of a relationship.



    In my case, ended in disaster after 20 years, lust & love. Compatible ? Sex yes, relationship wise, no. We werent friends.

    Aug 14, 2008
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  • ithinkimmad

    Sweetie, your welcome. I'm agoraphic and social phobic (and I am not unattractive) due to this.



    NEVER plunge into the depths of darkness that I have. Keep your head above water and believe what you tell yourself,



    YOU ARE GORGEOUS, YOU ARE STRONG, YOU CAN MAKE ANY MAN WEEP AT THE KNEES........



    Sweetie, get strong and go out ther and have fun, do it for me.

    Aug 14, 2008
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  • CuriosityKitten

    ithinkimmad....thank you. It helps knowing that others know what I'm feeling, that there are people who are willing to share their experiences with me to help me through. I appreciated all the support so much.

    Aug 14, 2008
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  • ithinkimmad

    Sweetheart, I am new to this forum but can totally empathise with you.



    My own relationship broke up after 20 years and even now 5 years later, occassionally I still miss that woman.



    It does get better but its a gradual process.



    If you have never loved, you will never know what it is like to be truly hurt and to be mortally wounded. However, like all wounds that are not physically mortal, the pain dulls and becomes a memory for you to learn from and to progress within your life.



    Dont let this be the end of your life.... let it be a new beginning.

    Aug 14, 2008
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  • justmeonline

    No doubt you deserve the online family - take good care now!

    Aug 14, 2008
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  • CuriosityKitten

    I love you all, my online family!! Thank you so much. Hugs to you all.

    Aug 13, 2008
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  • CuriosityKitten

    Oh, Kitty...you are beautiful. Your words (and Iggy's...LOL) made me smile. Thank you.

    Aug 13, 2008
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  • naughtykitty7734

    It is getting better, sweetie...healing hurts. And it may not feel like it, but your tears and your sorrow is how you let go. Cry until the crying is done. You're getting there, I promise you. Having a hungry heart is a gift and a curse...from an Iggy pop song: "Sometimes my self-respect took second place, and then I cried for love...if you cry for love, then there's still a chance you'll get it, cry for love." You and me both, honey. But we are the chosen, the seekers, the people who have it in them to find their way. Thank you for sharing yourself so honestly. I respect your courage. Love...

    Aug 13, 2008
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  • CuriosityKitten

    Justme....thank you. You honestly touched me. Thank you so much. My family here at EP are truly beautiful people.

    Aug 13, 2008
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  • justmeonline

    I read your tender comments, CuriosityKitten, and I feel for you. Sounds like you had some amazing times together. I think grieving a broken relationship has to be one of the toughest things a person can ever have to do in their life, if it happens to them. In today's fast-moving world we can sometimes feel under pressure to just keep moving forwards, but I agree fully with LovinLacy. The level of intimacy and connection you clearly felt must be devastating to lose and of course it will hurt terribly and of course it will take time and there's absolutely no shame in that. My two-bits worth: don't rush yourself; cry all you need to; know that you have friends who support you; most of all, please do take good care of yourself. Try to eat at least a little, even if you feel you have no appetite. Don't feel guilty resting a lot if you need it. It can be easy for us to neglect ourselves when grieving. I hope you have friends living near-by whose physical company you can keep, too during this difficult time. And of course you have us at EP too. I'm truly sorry to hear of this. Take care, and let us know how you are. Thanks also for having the courage to share.

    Aug 13, 2008
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  • CuriosityKitten

    I thought I was getting better. But it's always these tiny things that spark a memory and then it goes all to hell again. But, I'm appreciative of your support. It helps to know there are people out there that care.

    Aug 12, 2008
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  • CuriosityKitten

    Thank you so much for saying that. I just can't seem to stop crying over it.

    Aug 12, 2008
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