Just as I thought I was getting over him, that damn song brings everything back to me. And, I'm afraid he still has my heart. Maybe not all of it, but he still has it and I know I need it back...but I don't want it back. I want him to keep it and to protect it like he promised he would.
I miss that sexy, perfect scar on his face. I miss staring into his eyes and just knowing that he loves me. All those perfect words he said to me. Those cute, mocking faces he made when we made love. The way he gently took me by the hand and led me outside where the most amazing thing happened. The way he stopped me from pleasuring him and silently laid me down on the floor and entered me.
Listening to him cry over the phone as I sat in the airport, waiting to return back home. How he said he didn't want me to leave. I want it all back. I want to go back to that time and freeze time and never leave.
I just want to forget it. But I can't. And my heart is breaking all over again.