Maybe I`ll Find My Way..... One Day

I miss him. he`s my everything, my heart, my soul, my life. you may think this would turn out to be the same old sappy love story. "blah blah blah, they fall in love, get married ect. stuff like that"
It`s has a little twist to it though. It`s like hes changing and hes different everytime i see him. Accasionally, he`ll go back to himself. We aren`t broken up, for now at least. I feel that something will come crashing down at any moment and just crush the life out of me. The reason is, that people spread rumors, and then they spread rumors, then you hear it from one of your friends, and automatically panick mode turns on and you have to go and ask the original source if its true. Of course most of the time its not true at all.
Then you still have doubts becasue he isstill being very weird and concious around you like he`s hiding something and doesn`t want you to find out whatever he`s keeping from you. It feels like the whole world knows one little secret and you are the only person in the world that has no idea what is going on.
Maybe, one day, i`ll find out all the things that he`s keeping from me. I`ll know the truth about how he really feels now. Although i won`t be able to do anything about it when the time comes, at least i`ll know the truth.
Smartypants5 Smartypants5
13-15, F
Jan 12, 2013