There Is This Part of Me...

that makes me miss him so much, and it is on every level.  I am not sure if this has anything to do with the fact that I have never faced rejection and I am making this a challenge for myself.  No matter what I am doing, I feel like he is still on my mind.  I can be very focused on work but still find myself fixated on thoughts about how he is doing, what can be different, and of course the ever agonizing feeling that he can be with someone else who is making him happy (but not me).  I haven't come to terms with why I feel the way I do.  I know I deserve better, and I need to find someone who wants me in their life as much I want him...
savior savior
26-30, F
4 Responses Feb 3, 2007

I feel the same way. My ex left me over 3 and a half years ago.. we stayed 'in touch', he would never come back fully though. Met a girl in Paris (sigh) almost a year ago, and though he still sends me letters telling me he doesn't understand why he still thinks about me too, he's trying to do the right thing, and I cannot be in his life. He was my best friend - I have yet to go a day without him on my mind, and I haven't seen him in a year. <br />
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Makes me want to believe in the 'one' if it wasn't so painful.

is that because this someone we're craving for once fulfilled a deep yearning? there's some superstition involved here, some people, don't know whether they're good or bad, make you feel like a lost child without them, they take us back to some very vulnerable mind state.<br />
i wish i could analyse it better. Anyone has been able to?

i always find myself thinking back to my ex, and maybe he was not the one for me or who knows maybe he is, either way i dont think that you can truly get over someone that you loved until you find someone knew to love, and who loves you back...someone who makes you happy

I guess sometimes you have regrets - and sometimes it can just be wishful thinking and wanting something you can never have. Hopefully you have found someone whom you love and miss when they are away. ;)