Missing Home...

I miss home and just want to pack up and leave this country I am in now. But my job and love are here, so I'm torn. I do realize this could be temporary as I have been away from home since I was 13 (20 years ago) - boarding school, uni, work and I have been living in a different country for over five years.

This reminds me of the first time I left home for boarding school at 13 and cried a lot after a month of being away. I'm really surprised with all these emotions suddenly coming out of me as I'm usually in control. But I just let them be and cry if I want to.

Hoping and praying I will be back to better soon. It's really tiring and I can't focus at work. I keep calling my folks home and they reassured me they will be always be there for me but somehow I just wanna rush home and hug them and stay for good.

Maybe this is my soul telling me to reconnect with my family as I have been living away for ages. I'm close to them but somehow my circumstances and choices in life keep me from living with them at home. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh....
openlancelot openlancelot
31-35, M
Jan 9, 2013