Missing You Daily

Three years ago you left this world for Heaven. When you left you left behind three beautiful children of your own and my three that thought of you like a second mom,especially one, and me. So much is different now that you are gone. Our two boys (bestfriends since age 2) are no longer together every day. Now they have to talk on the phone. They have only seen each other twice since you left us. I miss you and your kids. They are not together anymore and I worry everyday about them. One just turned old enough to come home. I miss having your son (my fourth child) with me all the time. He is growing up so fast. You would be so proud of him. I know that I am. When I talk to him I think about you and how we used to joke about how our boys would have to have seating for two moms at their weddings. How they always had each others back no matter what. How no one would mess with either of them because they knew that it was like taking on two. How you would just come over and sit on the porch and we would talk. Our time together watching the boys have football practice and we would talk about everything or nothing at all. I still want to pick up the phone and call you when something good or bad happens. I know that you had a lot of other friends but not me. You were my one true friend. My best friend. I miss you every day. I miss your advise. I miss your laugh. I miss your kids and the way things used to be. I feel like I lost you and my other kids at the same time. I know my kids miss you, one still cries sometime just out of the blue or when he gets done talking to your son. He had a plaque with your picture made and it has your three kids names on one side, my three kids on the other and it says "Forever in our Hearts" across the top. He had it made for your grave. The guy that made it did an extra one for him because he had read of your death in the paper and knew the pain that he was feeling. The one that he has is over his bed. I know that our kids will grow up and will always be friends and I'm glad that they have each other. I just miss you. I wish you were here to see them all. I know that you are watching over us all in heaven and one day we will all be together again. I just wanted you to know that I miss you every day. We never said good bye. It was always talk or see you later. Love ya. So I will see ya later, love ya!