He was my best friend from the time I was 8-17 and then **** happened...we fell in love during the last summer we were actually friends or at least that's the closest I've ever been to love and then everything ****** up. I got scared and told him I didn't love him and he got mad because he thought I led him on and then he went to a new school and got new friends and I wasn't as important anymore.
We went from talking every single day to maybe talking once every three weeks. I tried to keep in contact until that January, but I felt stupid and desperate because it was so clear he didn't want to talk to me anymore.
Two years have gone by, I have amazing friends, a good job, I just started my first year of college, and I still feel like there's something missing. I still miss him and I'm terrified I lost the best friendship I've ever had and a big piece of my future.
I'm not naive, I know high school friends fade and romances never last, but I truly thought two years would be more than enough time for me to get over any feelings...idk I just feel like I've gotten better at forgetting them. They're always there though, my heart aches and I'm so lonely without him.
How do you make it stop
hannahgraceaa hannahgraceaa
22-25, F
Aug 23, 2014