No More Second Chances

I loved Gina, we were as close as sisters.  We grew up across the street from each other and hung out together all the time until high school when her family moved with her to Florida.  Wow was that bad for Gina.  Her parents were older and moved to a place with a lot of older people and the only kids around seemed to be losers on drugs.  We still stayed in contact and visited each other, but started growing apart.  Gina started hanging around some total losers and got into drugs and more and ended up having 2 abortions. She came to visit me and I helped her through it all - brought her to church and she cried it all out to God.  I thought she was really healed until she started hanging around new losers soon after getting back to Florida.  I couldn't take it anymore.  It pained me to see her destroy herself.  She said she made a promise to God to never have another abortion, but she ended up in a relationship with a disgusting man who beat her.  I don't understand how anyone can allow a creepy loser to physically hurt them.  I tried to get her to get away from him but she was so far away physically and so far gone emotionally I guess... She just stayed with him. I just couldn't help her out of her messes anymore- it was taking such a toll on me and I ended our friendship. I wished I could go down there and destroy that man to stop him from hurting her, but she would always find another way to destroy herself. I always hoped she would change and we could be close again....

  Well, I found out last year that Gina died (they said it was her heart) and she had 3 kids who each of her 3 siblings now have adopted. (never married)   All I know is her heart was probably broken from when she was a child. She just never recovered from.....  one- her mother stupidly telling her she was a mistake- how anyone could use those words, finding disgusting magazines her father kept around (and her mother and father were always married, never got divorced ick!!!.... two. being molested when she was 8 years old by a neighborhood boy who was 12. and even being hit on by her own cousin- first cousin at that.  Sick, sick, sick, ba@tards out there. Could that have been why she became so promiscuous?  She just never seemed to take care of herself - putting herself in these dangerous relationships and situations.

I miss her deeply.  I missed her after our friendship ended, but now I know she has run out of second chances at having a good life.  At least she experienced a lot of love and fun with me when we were kids!!! And now I pray to God that he keep her safe and heal her in Heaven.  I look forward to the day I see Gina again in Heaven with the angels.  May she rest in peace.

chiak chiak
36-40, F
2 Responses Mar 6, 2009

Thats a sad story...You were a good friend to try an help her the way you did. Sadly, some people are beyond your help, and in that situation its best to leave well alone. Your own happiness comes first xx

I know how you feel I have lost a close friend as well. We did everything together and we were so close, we would tell each other everything. She started having trouble at home and she moved out and started living with her boyfriend and after long they got engaged, but soon after that she was swimming in the apartment complex pool and she slipped and hit her head on the concrete around it and fell in the water and drowned. She was only 22 years old. That hurt me so bad I stopped talking for days, feling into a depression also. I thought that if I had of been there maybe it wouldn't of happened. It took me a long time to get over it but I see now that it was just her time to go. I just can't wait to see her one day when I get to heaven.