I Just Miss Him So Much

We used to do everything together. Everything. Everyday. It felt like it was us against the world. But then one day he made a dumbass decision and got us into this predicament we're in right now. I wish I could just hug him and kiss him and tell him how much I miss him and how much I miss the way things used to be. Nothing can ever replace what we had, nothing. Not ever. I wish he could understand this. Just because he is in jail does not change the way I feel about him. Yes it makes me sad and yes it makes me depressed sometimes but I would never leave him for anyone else. Come hell & high waters I'm sticking with him through whatever! I just recently told him that I was molested by two cousins when I was younger and that it went on for quite some time. I don't even think he knew how to take it. But I didn't expect him to. He told me to tell my parents and I told him that was not happening. He kept on and kept on and still I refused. But then my parents saw one of the "venting" letters that I wrote. And I told them everything. What being molested did to my head, the things that I did because of it, and the hardships I faced. Well I didn't give them every single detail but they know the basics of everything. It took so much weight off of me. And I can't thank him enough for telling me the right thing. I love him so much and no one is ever going to be able to replace him, even if, (God Forbid), we somehow just did not work out and we fell apart. I love you Kevin, hope everything goes back to normal soon.... ♥
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18-21, F
May 19, 2012