I Miss Him So; I'm Hurting... ='|.....I miss my boyfriend. I wish he was here ='| ...They saying crying it out can help, but what do you do when the tears are so numbing that they hurt? One moment I'm okey, but just okey... and the next I just want to run away and scream... I have a problem but there seems to be no solution... all I can do is wait... wait, wait, and wait some more... My love gets out next month... so they say... but it seems like the closer his release gets the slower the process is for him to actually be released..
I am so stressed out over this.. and some days I literally breakdown... am I crazy? "Love can make a person do strange things." so they say... ***sighs**
No one knows what I'm going through if they've never been in this situation.. and I'm assuming that if your reading this.. then your probably going through it just as I am.. keep your head up lovely.. well at least try; I am(;
I do have a question though if you are facing this same situation... how do you cope? what are some things that you do to take your loved one off of your mind so you can focus on now, the present? ...How do you relax? I could use some tips...
Anyway... so they say that working will help keep the mind flowing positively... and I am working, but still at times I find myself zoning off and thinking of him, and when I do that I get sad... good memories make me sad because I cant make new and better ones right now... I really hate sleeping alone... that's when my thoughts hurt the most... at night; when I'm alone...
They say to hang out with friends.. well what do you do when you have no strength to have a good time/ Let alone if you've forgotten what a good time feels like? What do you do when you cant concentrate on your goals and ambitions? What do you do when you feel stuck in life and your partner is the only thing that makes you remember what happiness feels like?
Ya' know.. I wonder if soul mates exist? If they do I think I found mine... my boyfriend makes me feel complete though I have nothing... and since he isn't here, I'm just as miserable as I was before we met... ='|
I don't know what to do...
Here is a quote I found online that made me think of him... I cried and smiled at the same time
"I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh & cry because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other; for those were some of the best times of my life."-Anonymous.