I Can't Do It Anymore.

Yesterday was 7 months into my jt's 6 year 8 months sentence in state prison... I miss him so much. I feel so alone, I feel like no one understands how much it hurts. I talk too my Bestfriend about it but she's getting tired of hearing about it. I go to councilling but she doesn't really help. She's just helped with my anxiety... his family hates me... I always get dirty looks from them whenever i see then at the store or somethinfg. it makes me sad because I would tell his dad everything. (He was like a dad too me). I feel so alone when I'm in a room full of people, I'm not happy but I'm happier than I was 7 months ago, I always sleep. But I'm not depressed. I just want too give up on us. I just get so tired of waiting for him. I'm barely turning 17 next month. It just hurts to not even be able to write him due too the restraining order. I wish he wa still here at my side. We may not have been talking for a long time but he was one of the sweetest guys I had ever dated... he was mature which I love. I just want too be 18 so I can write/see him ... It's a tough night tonight, i have so much running through my mind...
micckk07 micckk07
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 17, 2013

I feel you, just like what my boyfriend's family member doing now, they had been good to me previously and now they won't even bother about me, dislike me because of some misunderstanding....

It sucks .. My boyfriends dad was like my Bestfriend & when jt was put away his dad like disowned me. I see his sisters at the store & they give me dirty looks. It's not all my fault that he's gone....

Why did they blame you over this?

Well long story short he was my softball coach. He's 24 & I'm 16. He got taken away because he got caught being with me & dating me ... So his family always gives me dirty looks & all that...