Strong As I Can Be

My fiance and I have been together for 2 1/2 years. Since we have been together he has been running from the law. 2 months before our anniversary we were pulled over and both arrested. I was released but he now is currently sentenced to 2 years. He is currently in the closest county jail where i am not able to touch him nor be in the same room with him. The visitations are through a phone system. We can barely see each other due to the two thick pieces of glass and steel wire (which are disgusting and so dirty you can barely see them). We are only allowed up to 15 minutes for visitation. Its really hard for me... Especially knowing how depressed he is... it doesn't help my situation any better. He has been in jail for about 6 months but is scheduled to be moved to the penitentiary in the next month or so. I hate that he has to go through this. I begged him to turn himself in.. but he knew he would be gone this long and it really sucks. I havent felt this horrible in my entire life. But i have to be strong for him and hold him down so i have to act like im handling it well when im on the phone with him. We havent even gotten halfway through his time. I know we both love each other very much but it's hard sometimes. I just wish there was a way to make this easier.
hizforever10 hizforever10
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 18, 2013

Right before my fiancé got locked up he thought about running also. I told him you don’t want to live in fear that at any given time you could just be taken away. It’s best that it happened now than a few years from now when you guys are married and settled down with your lives. Get it done and over with that how I took it, it’s only temporary, and after all this you guys will be able to have a life time together. It is really hard but in the end you will know it was worth it! Keep yourself busy and make it a routine to write to him you’ll eventually will start to get excited it’s like your time of day to talk to him. Little things like that do help.