I Miss Him With Everything I Have.

My boyfriend was sentenced to two years in prison for trafficking. He was released early for good behavior, and has been living in a halfway house across the country for the last four months. He was supposed to come home to me in July and we had made plans to spend the entire summer together and move to Alberta in fall.

His curfew at the halfway house is 10:00, so he calls me every night on or around that time. Three nights ago I received a call from Showtime Tattoo (his friend owns this tattoo parlor) and answered, excited to talk to him. His friend asked if I was alone, then told me that he was arrested earlier that night and the last thing he said before being escorted out of the building was, "Call her, tell her what's going on and that I'm so sorry and get her to send a message on Facebook with her address."

Two nights earlier he had asked me what I would do if he pulled a prank on me and got someone to call me and tell me he's back in jail. I thought the call from his friend was a joke. He told me he was serious and that he was sorry for me, then we exchanged goodbyes. I was standing in my bedroom stunned and confused..it must have been a joke, right?

Not even a minute after that call, another one comes through - Unavailable ID. I NEVER answer blocked calls, but had a feeling I should take this one. I answered the phone and it was him. I breathed a sigh of relief and laughing said, "**** you! That's the meanest thing you could have done to me!"

He was silent for about five seconds then said in a voice so low I could barely hear him, "I'm so sorry baby..I'm so so sorry. I was arrested today, I'm back in jail." Those words hit me HARD. No jokes or pranks here. 100% shock. I fell to the floor crying, I couldn't control myself. I had waited a YEAR to see him, there were only three months left..and he was taken away from me again.

It's been three days, and I'm so depressed and lost. I haven't stopped crying. I fall asleep crying, I wake up crying, I break into tears during the day. I wont be with my boyfriend for another two years. I sent him my address and we'll write to each other, but I wont receive my first letter for over a month.

I'm so thankful for my supportive family - they're sending me to visit him in the summer, and I couldn't be happier about that..but they just don't understand and can't relate to what I'm going through right now.

khilea khilea
18-21, F
Mar 14, 2009