My Boyfriend Passed Away And I'm Pregnant

My boyfriend of 2 years was murdered on July 23, 2011. I am 20 years old, and he was only 21. He was killed in an armered robery at his workplace. He was shot once in his chest and died instantly, he didn't even make it to the hospital. No one knows why he was killed because the robbers didn't even take his money. At the time, I was 6 months pregnant with a baby girl, a first child for both of us. He was extremely excited to be a father and talked about it all the time. He was an amazing man and the most loving, sweet person I've ever known. The night before he passed away, he asked me to marry him. He told me that he was the luckiest man in the world and that all he wanted was me and our daughter. I am close with his family and all of his friends, but it's just not the same as having him. I'm in love with him and knowing that I'll never see him again is devestating. It's only been 5 weeks, but as time goes by it only gets worse. I miss and love him so much I don't know how to deal with it. I am trying to stay calm because I'm pregnant and if it weren't for that I don't know how I would go on. How do you live without your soulmate? We were together all the time, and we told each other everything. I can't stand to be without him I feel empty and alone. He is the person that I loved the most in this world, and now he's gone. I don't know how to cope without him, and I'm not even sure that I want to anymore.
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7 Responses Aug 29, 2011

My name is Tahnika I'm 21 I've been with my boyfriend for almost 4 years he was killed 1/5/13 . We had are daughter 2/3/12 and are son (Jr) 12/22/12. Kingsley was one of the best dads any kid could ask for. He provided everything for them. Diapers wipes clothes shoes . I never had to buy anything unless I wanted too. Of course we had many fall outs and we've both said things we don't mean. But it sucks for me because I have to live with the regret of knowing I've done him wrong and said alot of wrong things and he's never coming back. He was on his way out to another club, I woke up because I smelled his Cologne. And I asked where he was going, he asked me why? (We had just got into a big fight earlier that day) so Instead of arguing I just laid back down and when he left I text him 2 really mean messages. (B/c I was tired if him being gone and we just had are son) well sadly for me and my kids he was shot and killed at the freakin party he went too. He was only 20 years old. I'm so lost without him. Ill never be able to move on and find true love again. Kingsley is ir replaceable. Plus he would never appreciate me having another man around our kids. Everyday is hard. I question God but I try not too because I don't want him to punish me. It's just so hard because in heaven we won't be a family again. Everyone will be family but I want my family. Just me Kingsley and are kids. I know it sounds selfish but Kingsley was my world. God Kingsley and our kids was all I had in this lifetime. I'm so empty and lonely. Even if Kingsley was gone at the club Atleast I knew he was alive. I just really miss him. I'm sorry about everyones lost.! I wish this wasnt apart of our lives. If anyone here needs a friend I'm here because I truly don't believe my family understands.

My husband just passed away 4 weeks ago. He was heading to a job site when an 18 wheeler vered into his lane and hit them head on with no warming. His truck exploded and caught fire. He died instantly. We were 13 weeks pregnant that day. He was literally everything to me and our son. This baby was everything he wanted and more. We had one five year old that was mine and this was gonna be his first but he always concidered my son his anyway so we will call it his second. We were in the process of building a home. And we were gonna five kids total. Sounds silly but he was a great father. That's what he wanted most out of life he always said if I'm not a good man or a good worker or anything else you can at least say I'm a good father. He was all those things though. He was a great provider and a good man. I don't know how to keep from being sad to get threw this pregnancy. I'm 17 weeks now and in three more we go to the boy or girl ultrasound he wanted another boy. He said girls would have wrapped around there fingers to much he had to have a gang of boys. Your story aches my heart because I walk threw my day like a zombie. I don't know how to help you. Because there is nothing to fill the void except time and prayer. And his love. Close your eyes and feel his love.

Two days ago my partner and dog were killed in an accident. He rolled the car and our dog ran away injured and my boyfriend went looking for him. He found the dog and when he was crossing the road to get him he got hit by a van and killed instantly. I'm 8 weeks pregnant and
Heartbroken I don't want to go on and I don't think I can. I woke up this morning thinking he was still here I can't eat sleep I'm force feeding myself for the baby and I'm terrified I'll lose it

Hi, my name is Andrea. I'm 31 and when I was 35 weeks pregnant my fiancee of 5yrs. passed away in his sleep at the age of 35. Our baby boy is due in 4 days (Sept. 11, 2012) I know exactly how you are feeling sweetie. We had just moved in to our house, just put our baby's crib together, etc. The night before he died he showered and had me help him shave, he made me a piece of pizza, we put in a movie and he said "goodnight I love you" then I fell asleep. Every night prior to that I would wake up several times in the middle of the night with heartburn, or because the baby was dancing on my bladder, or to turn over because my hips were hurting... on that night I didn't wake up not one single time, I question myself, God, etc. over and over. Waking up and finding him, performing cpr at 9mos. pregnant, and knowing he was already "gone" was so devastating. He too was so excited about having a baby boy, since his youngest is 11 and my only child is 13, all he talked about was having a son and being able to raise him as a family. These past 5 weeks have been extremely hard on me, but somehow I have to find the strength to make it... I "talk" to him every single day, I cry, I get angry, I smile and laugh when I remember all of our talks and memories. In 4 days I'll be giving birth to his son, I know that when I look in my baby's eyes and see my fiance and knowing that I'm holding a part of him will give me some comfort. I'll keep you in my prayers.

im sorry,thats the worst situation..<br />
have you baby! at least you have a little piece of him in your baby girl.<br />
yeah if that hapend to me i think i would defenitly kill myself but not if i was about to have his baby.<br />
stay strong even thought thats probubly not possible just think of this your about to have a beautiful<br />
baby girl and at least stay alive and take great care and show that baby an extreme amount of love.because shes part of your hubby as well.

awh,, that's so sad! I'm sorry,, I know that doesn't help. But God has a plan for everyone. You can move on, I mean I KNOW it's going to be hard, but God has a plan for you and your child. Keep your head up!

At least he was able to leave a piece of himself behind for you. When you have your baby you all of your time will be taken up with her. The focus of your life will change. 3-4 years after she is born you might see her do things that you know came from her father. A look, a word you did not teach her, something will remind you of her father. <br />
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You will always remember your fiance. Hopefully, when you are ready you will be able to find another relationship.<br />
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Good luck and may God be with you.