I Miss My Boyfriend Who Passed Away

It Hurts

By: Shonda

Written on February 21st, 2010

My boyfriend passed away yesterday morning. I am hurt beyond words. He was taken away so suddenly. It hurts more because he wanted to marry me. He brought a ring and was going to propose for Valentines Day....but I never saw him because he got sick. I can't stop crying. I do take comfort in the fact that our last words to each other was "I love you." He wanted nothing but happiness for me and it showed. He didn't even get to enjoy his year of being 21 (he just made 21 Dec 15). I AM kinda angry because he let go and sometimes I think maybe there was more the hospital could have done. But I know he was tired so God called him to rest. I've loved him since 5th grade but haven't got a chance to show him how much until these past few months. I don't know how to handle the fact that he is gone. His family is not relating much information to me. I don't know how they feel about me right now because we all got into an argument a few months ago. Nobody else understands the love we share simply because we had a normal relationship. We had problems like everyone else but our love for each other has never changed. I miss him so much.....R.I.P Travis

By: Shonda

Age: 22-25 , Female

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10 responses

cutecookie1011

Im only 12 years old and my boyfriend past away. We only spent 18 days in love. But we been best friends for a year and soooo. Midle school is hard Now that's he gone. Now I don't know whAt to do anymore. When I get out of school I don't have really no one to txt my mom doesn't care. This is very hard. He past away 2 weeks ago so I'm still adjusting. It hurts I know. But live life because my boyfriend wanted me to be happy and I bet urs did too

Mar 30, 2011
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Shonda

I just want to thank everyone for their sympathy and prayers. It get's a slightly easier everyday. I miss him so much it hurts. I saw him for the last time today. He looked so peaceful. It was hard. But I feel him with me everyday helping me get through this.

Mar 4, 2010
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soma1971

I Am so sorry to here of your loss.. it is so hard to lose some one that you have given you self over to, to share your lives together. I am glad that you have been able to find some peace through this.

Mar 4, 2010
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stephbill

I am so sorry for your loss I will pray for you and him :(

Mar 1, 2010
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Shonda

He was a diabetic since he was a child. He had complications from that. I think he was suffering a lot more than he was showing and telling people. He didn't like to worry people. Sometimes he wouldn't even tell people when he was in the hospital. I knew he was having problems with his kidneys but I didn't think it was that serious. The saddness I feel has lessened a little because I'm happy he found peace and he won't be suffereing anymore. The wake and funeral might be this weekend if everything goes as planned. I don't know how I will handle it all. I went shopping today for something to wear and almost passed out in the store just thinking about what I was shopping for. I never in a million years thought I would be shopping for clothes to wear to his wake and funeral....not this soon. Right after, I spoke to his mom......I could hear the pain and stress in her voice. It's just so hard right now.

Feb 22, 2010
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Sneaks2010

I saw your post , read it and am struck my sadness for you. I hope you can find some comfort in your friends and relatives. Speak about him and cry as much as you have to. Don' t let his memory fade away.

Feb 22, 2010
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Cntryloner

I am so sorry for your loss :(. I lost my husband suddenly after 22 yrs of marriage. Both of you getting to say I Love You before death means a lot I know. As nomomisery said try to find comfort with those that loved him too "and" keep NOTHING bottled up. And, i's OK to feel angry. Everyone told me it was very wrong to feel anger towards my husband for dying but I later found out that it was very natural to feel it. ANY feelings you may have during this awful time is OK. Do not let anyone dictate how YOU should react to this. Everyone is different and there is no "protocol" to grief.

God Bless you and take care.

Feb 22, 2010
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PeaceLovinIndividual

Sorry for you loss. The pain will ease with time. Til then keep yourself surrounded by the ones you love. Take care

Feb 22, 2010
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fungirlmmm

I am so sorry for your loss.

Feb 22, 2010
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Shonda

Kidney failure

Feb 21, 2010
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