I Miss My Brother Who Passed Away
Same high school as I.
Same religion as I.
My older bro.
How did his death occur?
Matthew was spending time with his friends on Wednesday January 18th, 2012. His plan was to come back home Saturday January 21st, 2012. Friday January 20th his friends and he went to a restaurant for dinner, with his friend's parents. When they were leaving the restaurant a car purposely ran him over. Luckily it was a low speed so it didn't hurt him a much. They parked the car and beat him to death making racial comments about how he had a mixture of races in his family and mainly about his religion. It was all taped on 4 video cameras. One that his friends were taping for a project for school, two from the security cameras outside, and one from one of the bystanders that thought it would be funny to post on Youtube, until they found out he died. That is what happened to Matthew, at 5:08pm on Friday January 20th, 2012. The teenagers were from Georgia and apparently their cousin's with some kid at my bro's and my high school, and the cousin is an Atheist so he asked them to kill him because of our religion and somehow race joined. So they didn't like Christians, obviously.
My last words to Matthew?
The last thing I said to him was "I hate u, ur so stupid and annoying. Ur the worst person ever. I'd trade anybody in for u. I'm ashamed to call u my bro u ***hole"
How sad have I been about it?
Well some of you know how rude I was acting in the beginning of the month. Some of it was because I missed my parents, but I didn't want to tell anybody the whole reason. Most of it was because of the death of my bro. Yesterday I was talking about how I was gonna kill myself, and I wasn't joking at all. I was planning on committing suicide on February 20th, 2012 since that would've been a month away from my bro's death. I have been skipping school, acting rude, crying, and talking about suicide since his death.
What is my plan now?
Alright. I gotta plan now. Imma move on. Last night I talked to some people who really helped me out. And I will be sending them messages and cards. I got my plan from my ep big bro. So no suicide anymore, no rude Joe, but a new Joe. I wanna take my bro's place. He was a good guy.
Matthew was always there for me and he cared. He would be the first one to come. I remember in 7th grade (He was in 8th) I broke my arm, and he was the first person that rushed to me and helped me out. Our parents had us go to church ever since we were little babies, and when we were 7 we got our first bible. We didn't read them until two years after. So I was 9 and he was 10. He'd read it to me and I'd just follow along.
When I was in 7th grade (12) and he was in 8th grade (13) we started listening to music and reading. We'd take turns reading. One week he'd read a book and the next I'd read one. The person who wasn't reading got to choose the songs for the week. It was fun and sometimes we asked our younger bro and sis and parents to join. It was a smart idea he came up with.
In high school he helped me with all the hw I had. He answered all the questions I had to. He was gonna graduate next year, and go to college. He wanted to become a pastor and I want to do the same. He was athletic. He signed up for basketball, volleyball, soccer, football, and track. He said he wanted to try to do a lot of different things so he'd find his strengths and weaknesses then improve on both. I did find it funny though because some of my friends, when they first met him, they said he looked like some guy. He kinda did though. Guess everybody has a twin.
He was a great guy. He signed up for everything he could at the church. He made sure my siblings and I didn't miss church. He wasn't going to tolerate it. And when he was in charge, he'd act just like our parents which is a good thing. He'd spank or ground if necessary, he'd make sure we do our hw, he'd make sure we did our chores, he was just so responsible. He was the best bro in the world.
I miss Matthew terribly. I need him. He will remain in my heart forever, and I can't wait until my time comes so I can join him. Rest in peace bro. I hope you'll enjoy your time with God. I will still continue our dream of being a pastor. Then I will preach for you and the Lord. God bless.
