My Heart Is Broken
I miss my cat so much... I couldn't even use his name in my name for this forum. It was (?) Dickens. He was a gigantic pain, but also the love of my life. He was SO affectionate, would jump up and give hugs around my neck, nuzzle, nibble, cuddle. He got cancer... so much pain and $. I would have spent more if I would have thot he would have had a good chance and if it would have ended his suffering... I will never have another cat like him. I have Emma (persian) and Lucy (dog/Japanese Chin) who I love desperately, but they're not Dickens. I CAN give them more attention now. My heart aches. I feel consumed with guilt sometimes... should I have tried more??? He trusted and loved me. My home feels empty and too quiet.