Missing? Or Just Wishing...

My father didn't want me, so he left before I was born. 


And then he died before I got the chance to meet him.


It's my fault. 


I've heard people say I'm the spitting image of him.


I don't even know what he looked like. 


I would like to.


I can't go to anyone anymore.


I've tried before, and I'm stuck with searching the internet for where he's buried. 


I get so close, and then, bam. It's gone.


This is usually why I cry I at night. 


Is this missing him? 

Is it possible to miss him? 


I wish so badly to know him.


To at least talk to him, once, if anything.


Just to know, why.
Hopeless0Nerd Hopeless0Nerd
18-21, F
Aug 14, 2010