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Wolf In Sheep's Clothing.

The one person I admired most when I was little was my father. He took me everywhere with him I felt like his side kick. But then one day I came home and he was gone, he had got sent to prison because he almost killed my mother. I got beat and spanked everyday, but I thought it was normal, I thought everyone got beat. He is the worst person in the world. He has gotten away with murder, taken every drug known to man, and hasn't had a permanent home in years.
But one thing I have discovered about myself is that I miss my dad very much. I have a step father, but it's not the same. Can't and won't call him dad. I also haven't talked to my father in over ten years and I don't want the last time I see him to be in a casket. I'm just afraid if I let him in I will never get back out.
SecretSpirit SecretSpirit 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 11, 2011

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That's a tough one and I feel for you. Maybe your dad hasn't changed much in ten years, but I bet you have, at least you've grown up and you aren't that little girl anymore. Maybe you feel like it sometimes in your mind and memories but you're a young woman now. I know they say 'the only person I can change is myself' but maybe if your dad saw or knew what a lovely thoughtful person you've become he'd want to be a better person himself. Either way whatever you decide I think it would be smart to have some kind of a support system for yourself to lean on instead of trying to deal with it alone.

That's a tough one and I feel for you. Maybe your dad hasn't changed much in ten years, but I bet you have, at least you've grown up and you aren't that little girl anymore. Maybe you feel like it sometimes in your mind and memories but you're a young woman now. I know they say 'the only person I can change is myself' but maybe if your dad saw or knew what a lovely thoughtful person you've become he'd want to be a better person himself. Either way whatever you decide I think it would be smart to have some kind of a support system for yourself to lean on instead of trying to deal with it alone.

That's a tough one and I feel for you. Maybe your dad hasn't changed much in ten years, but I bet you have, at least you've grown up and you aren't that little girl anymore. Maybe you feel like it sometimes in your mind and memories but you're a young woman now. I know they say 'the only person I can change is myself' but maybe if your dad saw or knew what a lovely thoughtful person you've become he'd want to be a better person himself. Either way whatever you decide I think it would be smart to have some kind of a support system for yourself to lean on instead of trying to deal with it alone.

That's a tough one and I feel for you. Maybe your dad hasn't changed much in ten years, but I bet you have, at least you've grown up and you aren't that little girl anymore. Maybe you feel like it sometimes in your mind and memories but you're a young woman now. I know they say 'the only person I can change is myself' but maybe if your dad saw or knew what a lovely thoughtful person you've become he'd want to be a better person himself. Either way whatever you decide I think it would be smart to have some kind of a support system for yourself to lean on instead of trying to deal with it alone.