He Left

i didnt see my dad for 10 years cos he started a new family and left me behind. then he suddenly decides he wants to see me last yr. i met up with him and we talked for hours - it felt so good to have my dad..

then i didnt see him for 12 months, just txting and phone calls about once a month, and i got a phone call one day saying he was leaving for another country in 5 days time.

he didnt call me after that. he didnt txt me. i dont have his number or address. its like he disappeared off the face of the earth.. and i thought he had changed since i was 5 years old. i guess not.

but now i hate him and miss him and love him all at the same time. it rips my heart into millions of little pieces. im so angry, but i love him still...

my bf doesnt understand and neither do my friends. its nice to see people here that have shared this kind of hurt.

unexpected unexpected
18-21, F
2 Responses Jun 10, 2007

I'm really sorry that you are going through this. I love my dad dearly and even though he is often 'busy' with his life and allows so much time come between us before finally calling........I still love him so much that even though I sometimes feel he is selfish, and concerned mainly with his own life, I tend to 'overlook' those faults because my love for him is that strong. The only time my dad calls me is if it is REALLY REALLY important or....if he needs something. I am the only daughter who lives here on the same island. I have one son. My dad doesn't even call to check how his grandson is doing and it hurts. My brother and his kids live in the states and so he doesnt feel it the way I do. At least every now and then, my brother and his family get a LONG DISTANCE call from dad......as for me, I am only 20 minutes from my dad and there is NO excuse for him not to call. Just that he is not that kind of person. I miss the dad I knew when I was growing up. He was a military man, but I always felt how much he loved me. Why do our dads hurt us so?

I'm really sorry that you are going through this. I love my dad dearly and even though he is often 'busy' with his life and allows so much time come between us before finally calling........I still love him so much that even though I sometimes feel he is selfish, and concerned mainly with his own life, I tend to 'overlook' those faults because my love for him is that strong. The only time my dad calls me is if it is REALLY REALLY important or....if he needs something. I am the only daughter who lives here on the same island. I have one son. My dad doesn't even call to check how his grandson is doing and it hurts. My brother and his kids live in the states and so he doesnt feel it the way I do. At least every now and then, my brother and his family get a LONG DISTANCE call from dad......as for me, I am only 20 minutes from my dad and there is NO excuse for him not to call. Just that he is not that kind of person. I miss the dad I knew when I was growing up. He was a military man, but I always felt how much he loved me. Why do our dads hurt us so?