Even Though He's a Deadbeat Scumbag...

There's nothing like a father for a lil girl.  And although I'm not a little girl anymore I still miss my father.  He's never been anything to brag about but he's always been my dad, so what he's just a ***** donor! What are you gonna do?! He's an alcoholic deadbeat, who forgets birthdays, doesn't call to reschedule plans, just leaves me waiting around for him....but I can't help but want him in my life, the dysfunctional man that he is.  I always want him to turn over a new leaf and I still have hopes that one day he'll realize that he's destroying his self.  I miss my dad and he's not even far away, that's the sad part