I just lost my father on Oct. 11, 2007 to cancer. My sister and I had been his primary caregiver. My mother died when I was young, so he was all I knew, as far as a parent goes. We were extremely close. He loved my children so much and stayed active and social until the last week. I guess I am scared because I feel nothing. I can't feel him. I just go about my day, taking care of business and doing for my kids. I always thought I would break when I lost him, but I don't feel anything. I loved him so much, why can't I cry, scream, do anything to mourn. His funeral was like going to the grocery store....non eventful. His wake was the same. Has anyone felt like this?