Sleepless Nights

My husband was murdered on June 2, 2012. We were married seven years. We have a 6 year old son and a 5 month old daughter. I miss him so much. I find it hard to sleep at night and even harder to breathe during the day. I have no life without him.
wifey38 wifey38
36-40
2 Responses Sep 25, 2012

My husband was murdered as well back in 2011. Our son was 5 months old at the time. Its now 2012 and over a year has passed and I can tell you I still miss him today maybe even more. Its hard to say more because I have never missed him any less than now but maybe it feels this way because everyone says time heals all wounds and that it is suppose to get easier as time moves on. Well in my case that's not the truth. I continue on for our sons sake and I want him to have a happy life because I will feel even worse if he ends up broken as well. My whole life is ruined. Theres nobody I will ever love more nor is there anyone I even want to love. I just go thru the days keeping myself distracted and then at night when its dark and silent I imagine him with me, I try to see him and ask him to visit me in my dreams. I will never be whole again no matter how many good things happen in my life. Forever until I die will I know that half my heart and soul is waiting for me on the other side. I know I will be with him again even if it is just darkness. I don't care, I just wanna be where ever he is. I'm sure you feel the same way. How could you not if you really love someone. Thats what true love is, it lasts an eternity regardless of life or death.

Your story touches me deeply, as half my heart and soul is also waiting on the other side. It has been 7 years for me. You are right, time does not heal some wounds. Take care....

I am so sorry for your loss. Time does not take away the pain you are feeling, but it does dull it enough to move on. I hope you find peace enough to sleep once again.