Why I Miss My Hero

I have a hard time sleeping at night. It's funny how I can say that when I married my Hero almost 10 years ago. You'd think I would be used to the separation by now. It never gets easier. Unless you have been in my shoes, then  you have no idea. Each day that I miss him it just means I am closer to the day that I can jump in his arms and kiss him again. Our son is 8 years old. We made a chain before our Hero left will 400 chain links, and on each one he wrote something on it. Every morning our son gets up to take down 1 chain and read out what his daddy wrote. It always brings love to my heart knowing that our Hero is a big softy when it comes to his family. I miss my best friend, I miss the smell of his skin when he comes in from sweating in his Cammies all day. The way he looks at me like its the first time he ever laid eyes on me when I wake up in the morning at my worst. Or the way he would help me get dressed before we got to go out on a date. Or when he would sing Tougher Than The Rest by Chris Ledoux to me while we are just dancing on our back porch in the moonlight. Something so simple means so much to me. I could list a million and one things about how I feel about him. This is my fairytale, the good the bad and everything in between. I love the life we have created and built. I only knew him for 1 and a half months before we got married and 2 weeks of that time we spent talking on the phone before we finally met face to face, blindside because we had no clue of what the other looked like. I drove from VA to NC not knowing what I was doing, thinking I had lost my mind because I only talked to him for 2 weeks. But something kept pulling me to him. I met him at the gate at Camp Lejeune. I was in my convertable waiting for him to pull up to sign me in. I knew he had a white ranger. He pulled up, I caught a glimpse of his face, and then I was at ease. This was the man I had only talked to for 2 weeks, and he already knew everything about me, and vice versa. He walked up to my car opened my door, held out his hand pulled me to him and kissed me. I just went with it. We get back to the barracks and have a huge cookout with all his buddies and their girl friends. I was playing basketball and he looked over at me and started walking towards me and all his friends were smiling. He knelt down, grabbed my left hand and said...Never in my life did I think I would fall in love with you so fast, but I did. I cannot imagine what my life would be like if I spent another day not knowing your going to be mine. I need you in my life, I want to have children with you and a house and whatever else we are supposed to have. Becky, will you please say you will marry me and please say yes, even if you don't mean it just so that I don't look like an idiot in front of all my battle buddies. And I said yes, and he slipped a ring on my finger that fit and I don't even know how he knew my ring size.
I have tears in my eyes just thinking about it. I love this man, I miss him. He is my Hero, He is my Soldier, and I will stand proud all the years of my life knowing he is fighting for us. Love your men ladies. Trust your men also ladies. I would give anything right now to feel his fingers wrapped in mine.
Becky T

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4 Responses Aug 7, 2010

my goodness you made me cry. but wow. my fiance has also been deployed. some days are better than others. and its true when u say noone will never know or understand until they have been in your shoes. its not easy. thank you for this !!!

my goodness you made me cry. but wow. my fiance has also been deployed. some days are better than others. and its true when u say noone will never know or understand until they have been in your shoes. its not easy. thank you for this !!!

Thank you for your memories. I am just beginning my first deployment and it's scary to think about the effect the time and distance might have on my relationship. Your story gives me hope and strength for this. Keep smiling and keep remembering.

Your story made me cry, but in a good way. It really sounds like you love your husband so much. If it's ok with you I would like to share your story with my support group on base. They would really like this. Please just let me know! Fairytales do come true, don't they?