How Do I Get Through This Deployment?
First off, I feel like I have to get this off of my chest. My boyfriend is deployed in Afghanistan. This is his second deployment but the first one for me. I couldn't imagine before he left how hard this was going to be for both of us. Like others on this website, we fell for each other hard and fast. I told myself that I didn't want to fall for a guy I barely knew who lived out of state, and who I knew would be leaving for another deployment. But as you can see... I couldn't help myself.... he was very persistent. haha.
He introduced himself as my future husband when we met. I honestly thought... who is this guy?! What kind of a line is that? hahaha. But now I'm totally imagining a life with this man. I love him so much! It actually physically hurts when I can't talk to him. I've actually been counting the days. Currently there are about 200 days left which will hopefully put him back here in the middle of August. My sister believes that I should count moon cycles instead because 200 days sounds like a lifetime. lol
I've never wanted something so much but I know I can be strong and get through this because he's worth it and what other choice do I have? It's crazy when a song comes on and it never bothered you before and you just can't help the tears from falling. I totally feel like a dork for saving things from the time we had together before he left but now I find them comforting. He made a cheesy shirt for me with his name on it that means more to me than just about anything else I own. : )
So I wanted to ask you guys... how do you get through the first month and the last month with your sanity? John tells me those are the worst and I'm agreeing so far. I want to be as positive about this as I can and I know this will bring us closer than we ever believed. I still laugh about one pick up line that has ended up changing my life.
Also... is it just me or is it hard to find people at home who know what you're going through? They try to comfort you but really don't have a clue which is why I'm here now.
If anyone wants to share anything or give me some advice, that would be great. Also, I'm thinking about all of you and praying for your men/women too! : )