I Feel Empty Without My Dog.

It's hard even trying to think about my little beloved marley shih tzu puppy. He was the best thing I ever had. My whole family hated him because of the trouble he caused but it was adorable. He loved me and I loved him. Everybody has gotten over his death and I still can't stand it after these 8 months. He was only 7 months old when we found him lying down in our backyard... Not responding to my whistle. But for the 5 and a half months I had him. Those were the months of my life. I don't go a day without thinking about but I know my family has probably forgotten all about him. Ive never felt this much sadness in my life. The dreams are the things that kill me. I see him so vividly and it's unbearable. I don't like to sleep anymore. And the thing is I'm only 13 and I don't know... What can I do?
Marleyboe Marleyboe
1 Response May 22, 2012

I recently lost my Kina, she was a beagle-jack russell mix and nearly thirteen years old. I know its hard to lose some one you love so much. Sometimes you just have a connection with them that no one else seems to understand. Its unconditional love. You look at them as if they can do no wrong and they see you in the exact same light. It's important to not forget them and remember what they were like especially as you grow up. It's the feelings that they gave you and the way they made you feel that help you to be a strong person. We are rich because we loved them and they loved us back. I don't believe that there is anything that you can actually do to make it completely go away, it hurts. You can accept that it hurts and only time will make things better and let you accept the loss. For me, I accept that it hurts, but it doesn't leave me feeling badly anymore. I realize that I'm so fortunate to have had her impact my life the way that she did and when I think of her, I think of all the times she made me smile, all of our walks and adventures. What made me feel better was making an album to commemorate her and remember her. You loved your Marley, and I'm sure he knew and felt that. Just remember that he was so lucky to have someone that loved him as much as you did, it is the greatest gift you can ever give them. If you see him in your dreams so vividly, don't be afraid to sleep. Look forward to it so that you can see him again even for a little while.