I Miss My Friend

We had our German Shorthair pointer for 13 years. She was the most beautiful dog. Even the vet said she didn't look like a dog of 13. I miss her so much. This is a huge adjustment for me... for the whole family, but especially for me. I was the one responsible for letting her out in the morning, feeding her, taking her for walks, clipping her toe nails, bathing her and taking her to the vet. The first morninng I couldn't figure out how to start the day. Belle wasn't there to wake me up and tell me she was ready to go outside. I can't vacuum because the dog hair won't come back again. I come home from taking my little girl to school and the house is so utterly empty and silent. I cry when I make dinner because she's not there to shoo out of the kitchen or eat the crumbs off the floor. I'll never smell her musty smell again, or take her for a walk, or bury my face in her neck, or wash her eye boogers away.... So many things, every single day things are different now. I'm sad...