I Miss My Bebe

My brother was stationed in KY when he rescued our dog, and left him with us when he came to visit in CA. Of course I loved having a dog, I grew most attached to him out of my entire family. I was 12 or 13. When I graduated college, I took him in to live with my husband and I. He lived with us and even moved with us to CO where I am pursuing a veterinary degree. I loved taking care of him, and as he grew older he became much more of a lap dog who just wanted to cuddle and be loved. After his morning walk, I would cook him breakfast, and we would enjoy a peaceful morning together before I headed to school. He had been slowing down so I began preparing myself mentally and emotionally for the inevitable. Vet visits were unremarkable so I was sure it was just old age. Unfortunately, they missed a liver tumor which most likely was a metastasis of bone cancer. By the time it was caught, he was in a lot of pain. I did not expect to make a decision so suddenly although I had known it would happen.
He was 16. I was just shy of my 28 birthday (only 2 months ago). My best friend had been with me through thick and thin, been by my side for over 15 years, a faithful loving companion.
Someone told me animals reflect the emotions of their owners to which I replied that I disagreed- my dog had his own personally, his idiosyncrasies, that were his-- not taught, but uniquely his. Just like people have personalities, he was so special, such a loving soul.
I still have his dishes and beds out. I have even refilled his water bowl a couple of times. I can't seem to put them away yet. I know it's still recent. I just miss him so much.
Rest in peace bebe boy. You'll always be in my heart.
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Jan 11, 2013