Come Home

He hurt me. He lied, and cheated. I gave him everything. My home, all of my money and support, my first child, and all of my love.
I would only want to be with him. To make him happy was my goal. I did so much, that I would of never done, just to make him happy.
I gave him the chance to try again. I gave him the option of coming back home. 2nd chances right? Everyone deserves one...
He said no.
He said no and I'm all alone.
We have a baby on the way. But he's disappeared from my life.
There isn't one moment, not one second when I don't think of him. I miss him. He's the one who did wrong, and I'm the one wanting to beg for him to come back.
Everything he ever said, was a lie.
All the love he made me believe he had for me, never was. It was a dream.
Every memory, a wonderful, blissful dream.
And now I'm awake; in a nightmare.
Pain is all I can feel. No smile has been true on my face since he's left.
Everyone feels sorry for me. Everyone around me says, it's going to be alright.
Maybe it will...
But right now, all there is- is sadness.
I sit by the window, hoping to see him drive up. My phone is constantly on, waiting for his call.
I'm pathetic.
cnk91 cnk91
18-21, F
4 Responses Sep 22, 2012

I feel what you feel. It's been a year and four months and the anguish for me is so painful now.

I don't even know what to say, but I hurt for you too...((hug)) and much love xx

it hurts alot knowing that the one you gave your everything and all for doesnt want to be around anymore but you seem like a wonderful woman who will have the best present life can give you.. i dont have anykids of my own but i know how specail it would be and how much my life would change to feel the unconditonal love you baby will show you.. just hang in there i belive in you xo

Sorta going thru the same thing, i was with my e, for 2yrs then 3mos after we broke up i found out i was preggo. He was really confusing, sometimes being there but would go out with other girls and then one day he said he didnt love me anymre. I was devastated. Still miss hi and wish he was here during my pregnancy but he's a coward and i know when the baby comes ill be so mucb stronger. U will be too, just always think abt ur baby and what is best for him/her. Stay stro g, u dont need a man. Be the kinda woman needs!:)

And you are NOT pathetic. I feel like I am too. My only advice to you is the next time you find yourself in a moment of "okayness" take out a piece of paper and write down what he has done wrong to you. If there is anything on that list that will bother you for the rest of your life than he isnt supposed to be the one for you. In my life I could not tollerate a cheater. But this is your life and I do not know him. It must be scary with a child on the way but you are the childs mother...that is the only irreplaceable person in a youths life. Once your baby is born they will be the only person who you will love endlessly.