Can´t Let Go
I guess I don´t know why it´s always so hard for me to let go of people, but it is. It´s like a part of that person is always with you, haunting your everystep and whispering the past into your ear. I know it´s not forever, I´m just saying it´s right now. And the present is always so hard to deal with when you´ve never even let go of the past. And then Saturday afternoons, alone at home watching TV, when before you´d be in his arms. I never get used to that. I suppose the worst, is definately knowing it´s my fault I lost him, but it´s his fault he let me go. I never have, and even as friends, eventually you´re found helpless against inevitable distancing between you both. This was when I told him that I couldn´t take the distance anymore, we were supposed to be friends. What happened? And sometimes I wish I could take that comfrontation back, because if we were apart before, we´re never going to be close now. And I guess that´s the hardest, when I can´t help but browse through his profile just to see if he´s showing any thought of me. But it´s never clear enough. I guess when it´s down to the point, I can´t let go of someone, who at some point in my life, meant the world to me.